Trust Is Scary … no comments
Sometimes.
It is really difficult to trust that everything is going to be ok, when everything on the surface is just so … cockeyed.
I was turned down for a job yesterday. Not an unusual event. It was one of those jobs that would have been equally good or bad to get. Good, because it would have stabalized my life and gotten me into a place and I would have been able to stop hustling for jobs and let my personal projects slow down a bit. Bad because it would have tied me to one place and I would have been dependent on the job for a place to live and I wouldn’t have been able to travel.
Not that I can travel now anyway.
In any case, I have to wonder what The Universe is thinking. It just seems like I have a lot of weird job karma, or supporting myself karma. Sometimes it’s just hard to trust that there is something around this blind corner. Something good. It’s like a freaking cosmic scavenger hunt.
And I thought they were so much fun when I was a kid.